Last post was lost, So here is a new one.

  Haha, well my last journal post was one of the items stricken when Urnotalone went down. Unfortunately, it was URNA exclusive, which means it didn`t appear on my FB, Myspace, Yahoo Pulse or Flickr profiles, so it is lost to time.

  You know, that`s ok though, it happens. It was just a blog that gave you an idea of how I see the world, and how my mind works. It does bite a little bit that it`s gone, mainly because I put alot into writing it. But, that`s life. I an give you a quick rundown though.

   I`m married and have 3 kids, all of whom know all about Trina and supports me. They may not agree totally with who I am, but they understand that it`s not like I have a choice in who I was, I was born this way. I know, alot of you will disagree with that, and that is your priviledge. But I`ve been around the block way too many times to even attempt to call it any different.

  Through all of the years, I`ve evolved and grown. I`ve had the best teachers in the world when it comes to how to walk, talk and how I am really supposed to act as a woman. I consider myself very lucky that I can just be myself whenever I want, whereever I want. I would be a fool to think everyone has that ability. In fact, from what I`ve seen, read and everything, the ability to just be the woman I want to be without any restrictions is a gift, pure and simple, and it`s one I do not take lightly at all. Though my wife doesn`t know why I am the way I am, she does her best to be understanding, and gives me the freedom to just be me. For that, I`ll always be grateful to her for her support.

  It`s funny to me how, when I was younger and had no real instructions on how to be a woman, I could get read in a heartbeat. Do you want to know what it all came down to? It was my movements. How I walked, my expressions, even how I held my arms and DIDN`t swing them a bit when I walked. I was lucky enough to have a former Miss Indiana contestant for my best friend, and her and her mom worked with me. It was tough, as I had to relearn practically everything I did. Walking for instance. A tidbit for you, you DO NOT swing your hips intentionally when you walk. Here`s what you do.

   When women walk, they walk almost one foot in front of the other, Men walk feet spread apart. Most crossdressers and even transexuals still tend to walk like guys. With a little practice, you can get past it. If you have access to a tile floor, roughly 1ft X 1ft. square tiles, or a rug that has a one foot wide stripe on it, use that as your tool to learn to walk. Stay within a single line or stripe of tile or carpet. You`ll feel like your walking a balance beam at first, but you will get used to it. Practice all the time for a while, and soon you`ll be able to walk that line without needing guides. When that happens, your walk will become much more fluid and natural. Swing your arms just a bit while you walk and there you go, you`ll move naturally like GG women do. I`m pretty good at it from what i hear. Women ask me all the time if I could show them how to not just walk, but glide across the floor. It just takes a little practice, that`s all.

  The point of the story is blending in. That really is the ultimate goal, to be able to go out and be the woman you are without anyone around you having any hangups about it. Oh, you can take the militant stance and yell you don`t care what people around you think, but we all know that just isn`t true at all. In fact, I`ve heard time and time again from GG women that they actually do not dress to get guys attentions. They dress for other womens opinions, pure and simple. It makes sense, as another woman would be way more critical of someones looks than a guy would be. So, my GG friends told me that I should always pay attention to what women are wearing, and dress approprietly for where I`m going. For short, don`t dress like I`m going out to a club when I`m just going to Walmart, LMAO. To blend in and let the world see you as just another pretty woman out and about is the top goal. I think I`ve done a pretty good job of reaching that goal myself.

   Alot of GGs ask me where I shop. Now, first off, I do love dresses, skirts, basically all of the girly girl things. But, you can wear jeans and a tshirt and still be just as girly girl. It all depends on you. Anywho, I shop at Kohls, Dots, Gordmans, Walmart, Target, Dress Barn, Fashion Bug, C.J. Banks, Lane Bryant, JC Penney, Sears, Kmart, The Avenue, Burlington Coat Factory and Torrid. I like the things they carry at those places, so now you know. A word of advice I recieved ladies, and found it to be truer than I thought, if the store doesn`t carry plus size and regular sizes, you don`t want to be there, because the selection will not be as great. They usually have like ten designs all on the same exact style top. So no single size shops! Anywho, there`s where I shop.

   Well, there is a bit about me, and a rough idea as to how I think. I tend to write about a wide range of subjects, so don`t be surprised at some of the stuff you read from me. Take care everyone!